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I haven’t written much lately. I have been very busy but also I have been thinking….alot.
Something about writing and posting said writing makes thoughts and ideas so permanent, which freaks me out. I change my mind sometimes daily. My opinions about life, what it all means, what we should do, what we shouldn’t do.
Writing about my thoughts makes me feel like I can’t change my mind later, so when I am going through a period of thinking I tend not to write as much. Today I have decided to just write and be ok with sounding like an idiot to myself three years from now when I go back and read all these posts.
In fact I already feel that way when I read my posts from earlier this year. I read a quote once which I think I have written about before….I can’t remember who said it but they said that humans are works in progress who always think they are finished. (Or something like that.)
This is such a problem for me. Something in me doesn’t feel like I should share my thoughts until I have it all figured out. I am figuring out that we never have it figured out, so I shall write. I may sound like an ass or village idiot later but if I do then I guess that means I’ve grown and learned something new. Maybe that is how it should be; your past writings are supposed to sound idiotic sometimes, showing that you have grown.
So I guess these entries will be like a middle school diary and someday I can go back and re-read my writings and sit with all the feels. “Oh god I said that!?” “What was I thinking?” “Why?!” “NO!” I can hear my future self critiquing me already.
This is me saying that just because I write it and share it, doesn’t mean that by the time you are reading it, I haven’t already changed my mind. Because I am a work in progress people! I am absolutely clueless on life and how this is all going to work out. I’m just here, in it, writing about what I think today. Or this second at least.
Happy Friday Fools!