5-25-16

Hi dolls, I have been working on my Goddess Garden every free moment I get. I am firery about it. Becoming a mother tapped me […]

5-16-16

hey sweet loves, We got home late Saturday night from Florida and got settled back in yesterday. 10 days away from home is a long […]

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5-4-16

Hi Yall 😉   Man does it feel good to have that story done and published! (If you haven’t read it yet you can click here […]

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4-28-16

Hi Lovers, Nothing too exciting to report. Just writing to say hello. Also sometimes I just need to write to clear my thoughts. My mind […]

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4-23-16

hi dolls, I just finished writing a piece for an online magazine. They asked me to write about my experience living in the mountains etc. […]

4-11-16

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Hi Dolls,

Today it is super erie outside. We have major fog rolling in. These mountains look different every day, I am in love.

 

Anyways, recently I have been thinking a lot about the divine feminine. I think about this often because….I’m female….ha.

I have read many spiritual books, written by mostly men, who talk about women and the feminine power as the most powerful force on earth. They see what 90% of women can’t see in themselves. I want to see it, master it, and use it for good.

I’m reading a book now that discusses women’s history. Not the history we learned in school, how women have been oppressed since the beginning of time and we are so lucky today.

This book talks about how most tribal communities (way, way, way, back in the day) were matriarchal or egalitarian. Women, children, men, elderly, were all seen in equal respect.

Women were idolized and honored for their ability to create life, and the tribe revolved around the cycle of the moon and their women.

I want feel this way about myself. I’m not aiming at changing our entire society over night because that is just too big of a project for me today. Today I simply want to revere myself in this way. I want to find my divine feminine power.

One reason I think today’s women have lost touch with their divine power is that we are raised thinking we have to please people. We are natural nurturers, and the idea of nurturing has become “everyone else, INSTEAD of me”. The great idolized woman who many people talk about is a woman who puts all others needs before herself. Never taking a moment for herself. I thought that this was the greatest thing a woman could do. Then all of a sudden I had a husband and a baby and I pumped the breaks…..

 

I will not live like this.

 

Taking care of those you love is very rewarding. Truly it is. I like doing it, but I also like having my own time and life. I most of all like to nurture my self, my soul, because that is when I can give back my best to my family. Sure I could run around the house cleaning and baking and being the perfect house wife with now ambitions for herself….but my soul would die. And when my children leave I would have nothing.

Balance, balance, balance. Everything in moderation. If I was working at the office 14 hours a day for 7 days a week, you would all tell me that I am a work-aholic. But that is pretty much (actually probably longer) the schedule most moms keep. Being a mom is an amazing job, but it is alot of work. I realized quickly that if I wanted time to myself I had to ask for it and then actually take it. So every Saturday is now my day off. The whole day.

My point is that in our natural ability to nurture we forgot how to nurture ourselves. women have become so dependent on their families opinions of them. We live for approval from husbands, children, or bosses. Completely forgetting that the most important opinion of all is our own.

Trav is such an amazing man. The other day he told me to stop caring so much what he thinks. If I am happy, then he is happy. It was a subtle yet profound shift in perspective for me. Instead of prioritizing my day according to what I know Trav wants, or Phoenix wants (Yes he is only 16 months but trust me…he knows exactly what he wants) I will start with what I want.

Again, I preach balance. I am not going to leave Phoenix crying in his room because I want read or something. As a mother, when the baby is awake his needs come first. Duh. What I mean by all of this is that instead of leaving my needs for the end of the day or if I get time, I am recommitting to carving out sacred time for myself. The dishes can wait. I will wake up early and meditate, yoga, read, and write.

I will do everything with presence of what Haley thinks of feels, not needing any kind of approval. Acting consciously with nothing but good intentions.

The woman is the energetic power house of her family. The saying “Happy Wife, Happy Life” is not a joke. Women hold large energy fields and I want mine to be a place of love, compassion, and fun. In order for my energy to be so I have to cater to my own soul and needs.

We posses the power to create worlds. Our homes, our families, our friend circles, we create all of it. Women are the energy holders. We have to stop giving away our power to the approval of those around us. If women can learn to control their energies they can change the world.

Love to you all

XOXO

Haley Anne