5-25-16

Hi dolls, I have been working on my Goddess Garden every free moment I get. I am firery about it. Becoming a mother tapped me […]

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5-4-16

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4-28-16

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4-23-16

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2-17-16

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Hi Lovers,

 

 

So much has happened since my last post. I have been running running running since then.

On the 12th, all three of us headed up to Breckenridge to watch Trav play in a pond hockey tournament. He did so well. Watching him play hockey is the ultimate turn on. He’s really good. I think he had a really great time seeing old friends and meeting new ones. Nix did really well. He was so happy to spend so much time outside. We somehow scored a little condo for the night that was super cheap and super nice. We were very happy with that. Nix had plenty of room to roam around and explore between games and give Mommy’s back a rest.

Every mountain trip we take comes with realizations. This was no exception and in a very big way.

A fight sparked from a simple communication error between Trav and I which led us to a much bigger realization.

I had been trying to do it all and failing, the failing to do it all led me to escaping. I had been pretty absent for Trav recently and very focused on my “work.” Since becoming certified in yoga I took on Travs roles and also tried to keep my own. Trav and I came into our roles pretty naturally and it has been easy and fun for both of us. Only when one of us gets confused does it spark a little spat.

After yoga school I thought I was somehow supposed to contribute to financially supporting us and also take care of Phoenix etc. It just wasn’t working. You can’t take care of a toddler 24/7 and also work. You have to choose one or the other. Day care is not an option for us and as a result of me trying so hard to make my yoga work Trav ended up taking care of Phoenix alot of the time. Trav’s work is so flexible and it seemed like it would all work. It just wasn’t. Trav wasn’t getting enough time for his own work, neither was I, and Nix wasn’t getting the one on one attention he deserves.

I was trying to make it all work. I was getting up at 3:45 am to tape yoga classes every day. It was crazy. I was majorly sleep deprived and I just couldn’t do it anymore and also take care of Phoenix.

Trav and I had a long talk and both were able to understand each other better and feel relieved to be back into our roles. I love being a Mama and care taker of my family. I have big dreams and goals for myself personally too but I can work on them in my free time, just take the expectations off of myself. Trav supports us financially and so I need to focus on my Nix and providing a happy home for Trav to work in. I feel much better now knowing that I can “just” be a mom. My ideas about the perfect woman and what I want to be conflict sometimes. Being a Mom is humbling. We can’t do it all. We just can’t.

If you guys want to see the talk you can check out Trav’s Vlog.

After the hockey tournament we came home, unpacked, repacked and the next day Trav and I left on a Valentines day getaway. Trav’s parents are here visiting and took Phoenix.

We went to the Great Sand Dunes. It was so so so incredible. Too much awesomeness to tell here. Trav is making a little movie about it so check out his YouTube channel to watch our adventures 🙂

 

Much love to you all

 

XOXO

 

Haley Anne